Camp seems like so long ago, doesn't it?! I can't believe how fast time has gone by. I miss sky so much...but one of the things I miss the most is how close I was to God at camp. After reading Hannah's post below, I started to realize that I really have lost the "hunger and thirst" I had for Christ at camp. I longed for Him and lived each day for Him. To be honest, now I only do that when I feel like it. And I read my Bible and pray when I feel like it. What happened to the days when I couldn't wait to read my Bible and pray? What happened to the days when I was thinking about God all the time, instead of the things of this world? That "hunger and thirst" I had is fading, but I'm going to try as hard as I can to get it back. I've noticed that my life has a certain cycle to it that I really want to change: I mess up/sin then I run to God then I get closer to Him and live for Him, but then I don't run as hard towards Him and I fall away from Him and to the things of the world, and then I mess up/sin again and the cycle repeats itself. I think we tend to turn to God only when we need Him, only when it's convenient for us, like when we're struggling or going through something that requires Him to pull us out. So Quest, how are YOU doing? Are you turning to Christ in your daily life and living for Him, or are you only turning to Him when you need Him?
This might sound weird, but pray for me, that I can get that "hunger and thirst" I had at camp back. And I hope and pray that y'all didn't just make Quest a camp high, but that you're working on making it a reality. And if you fell away from Christ after camp and you haven't been with Him since, it's never too late. Get back up and run towards Him. "Get Back Up" ~ TobyMac
And I love how people are still using this blog! It encourages me so much! So if you're reading this, pleaseeee don't stop posting. Keep it up :)
-Haley
rest assured that you arent the only one. in fact, i struggle with some of the same things you struggle with. i often dont desire to seek the lord unless it benefits me and thats not ok.
ReplyDeletei think its a safe bet to say that the majority have struggled with the same thing or are struggling with the same thing at this very moment. in our hearts we know what is right and true yet we choose to follow the lies of the enemy.
i wish there was something i could say that would change that cycle but i just want you to be encouraged in knowing you arent alone.
thanks amber :)
ReplyDeleteThat's exactly what I'm going through right now! It's So. So. HARD! Cuz you want to hunger and thirst, but it's really hard to hunger and thirst for hunger and thirst...if that makes sense. I've been trying to read my bible and pray more, but I still feel so distant, like I don't REALLY care, and I hate it, but I don't! I know that doesn't make sense, but, anyway, I'm glad I'm not alone. Thanks for posting!
ReplyDeleteNo, that definitely makes sense, don't worry! Yea, I know what you mean...I don't REALLY care like I used to. I'm working on it though. And when I used to pray when I was at quest or right after quest it seemed as if I was talking to God face to face and He was right there with me. But now it's like I'm in one room and He's in the other room, and I feel like He can't hear me. Anyway, thanks for the encouragement! Glad to know I'm not the only one!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I can't believe you go to Ursuline...I need to finally meet you!!