FCS

okay...so my first time posting and I'm not even going to be on topic ;)

I am really intrigued by acts, and the power of the holy spirit, though being raised in a baptist church (uh oh :P) it's not a topic typically covered. So I will stick to reading what others have to say about it.

Although, I just wanted to share something that has really challenged me this past week. We start school today, my Junior year, and I have been training to be the FCS (Fellowship of Christian Students) leader on campus. It's something I have felt really called to all last year and there was no doubt in my mind what I needed to do. Although, I was also invited to join honors band, the top band at our school. They go on several trips and competitions, it's a really big deal to finally make that band. I did not see any conflict with doing both, other than having to miss out on Friday morning rehearsals to make the FCS bible studies. Unfortunatly, this didnt run over well with my band director, and he told me I would have to chose between the two. To me, it was no big deal to drop out of top band, I was dissapointed, yes, but I knew where my priorities were. Although, when both of my parents and one of my spiritual leaders encouraged me to step down from leadership and just go to the other fcs activities, I became confused.

Was being an FCS leader really God's plan for me? or did I just take pride in a leadership opportunity? I wasn't feeling peace in any direction. I prayed and felt empty. I opened up to Romans 12 and began to read the chapter for my devo. One part in particular stuck out to me "he who teaches use in teaching." it was talking about spritual gifts and using them for God's glory. Thinking back to Quest and the "my ride" boards, I remembered that one of my spiritual gifts was teaching. If I was gifted in evangalising, it might be a good idea to give up leadership and use top band as an opportunity to witness. But I'm not. God gave me the gift of teaching. So that's what I need to be doing this year :)

Just thought I would share that. I'm not sure why it was such a big struggle for me, but I feel so much more prepared for this upcoming year. Thanks for reading!